My boss said to me yesterday:

"there ain't nothin' worse than thinking you're getting something for free and then having it taken away from you."

and then i promptly fell asleep and had a dream about winning the lottery, only to wake up and realize I had not, in fact, won the lottery and did not, in fact, have $15 million to my name.

But get this, in the dream I decided that having a lot of money would mess up all my friendships so i paid off my parents new condo, my sister's college education, saved a little for a rainy day, and then donated the rest to charity. except no churches would take it 'cause it was "gambling money".

i don't even live irresponsibly IN MY DREAMS. but hey, at least i'm altrustic and not selfish.

big, big day tomorrow. but i don't want to write about how excited I am because i just might jinx myself. let's just say it will be a day full of firsts.